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If you listen to just my words,
You are not going to like what you hear.
Loathing, destruction, death, and some say, even evil.
But if you put your head against my beating heart,
You'll forget the four letter hate, and maybe, just maybe, you'll hear what's really there.
Pain. Fear. Hurt. And some say, even love.

I cannot accept what I'll never understand in myself.
I can take your abuse, your selfishness, your prideful speech.
Your disrespect for me emanates and yet I thank you for it and extend my hand.
I can justify it, forgive you, take the high road, knowing you care nothing about me.

My own wraps around me, tendrils of soft rope that begin as a caress and end as a plea for silence.
My silence.

I hate you because I let you off easy and I get nothing from you in return.
I hate myself because it was me who gave you an innocent verdict.

And when it's all said and done, I'm alone on a Thursday morning,
With nothing but a cold hard floor and a wall made of stones I built while no one was watching.

Maybe you should just listen to my words.

Maybe I should too.
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Kiddo's Journey

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 3, 2014, 12:27 PM
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You will never be entirely comfortable.  
This is the truth behind the champion~
he is always fighting something.
To do otherwise is to settle
~Julien Smith, The Flinch  

Welcome to my journey...



Skin by SpookyLoop
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: everyone else talk
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: my children play
  • Playing: the devil's advocate
  • Eating: not much these days
  • Drinking: coffee...it's always coffee

KiddosPoet

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 3, 2014, 11:42 AM


We can ignore even pleasure. But pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.” 
C.S. Lewis, The Problem With Pain


Psych nurse, Poet, Amateur photographer,
lover of music, and mother.

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  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: the world turn
  • Reading: Soon to be textbooks
  • Watching: my children and animals play
  • Playing: like I'm a normal person
  • Eating: More than I should
  • Drinking: Coffee!!!!
Notes filter through the speaker,
and instantly, I feel the sun on
my face and the tires hit the road.

The metamorphosis that is taking place
has been a long one.
Unsure and unsteady on my feet,
it's been easier to let the
speech from my head control
the conversation, and ultimately,
eradicate the dialogue in my heart.

The mind is a hardened dictator.
I set fire to the rain over and over again,
and your voice over the wire finally
stopped convincing me you cared,
thought you tried your damnedest to  
convince me otherwise.

As much as they want me to scream
YOU SONOFABITCH
and play the victim,
I refuse.

I reeled you in.
You were my prey and I
was your predator.

What I didn't see coming
was the role reversal.
Go ahead and love her,
and move on.
Because I have.

You have my blessing.

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KiddosPoet
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Current Residence: North Carolina
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Favourite genre of music: Indie/alternative
Favourite style of art: digital art-fractal art, b/w, macro photography
Operating System: Vista
Wallpaper of choice: I hate wallpaper! Let's go for paint!
Skin of choice: yours
Favourite cartoon character: A pup named Scooby Doo
Personal Quote: "Quod me nutrit me destruit" That which nourishes me also destroys me.
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BreezeWords Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thanks for the fav on Tell Me!
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Of course! Hope you are well!
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You're welcome love!
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You're welcome! Glad to see your work! Have missed it!
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