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Notes filter through the speaker,
and instantly, I feel the sun on
my face and the tires hit the road.

The metamorphosis that is taking place
has been a long one.
Unsure and unsteady on my feet,
it's been easier to let the
speech from my head control
the conversation, and ultimately,
eradicate the dialogue in my heart.

The mind is a hardened dictator.
I set fire to the rain over and over again,
and your voice over the wire finally
stopped convincing me you cared,
thought you tried your damnedest to  
convince me otherwise.

As much as they want me to scream
YOU SONOFABITCH
and play the victim,
I refuse.

I reeled you in.
You were my prey and I
was your predator.

What I didn't see coming
was the role reversal.
Go ahead and love her,
and move on.
Because I have.

You have my blessing.
Eyes that have blatantly
ignored me now turn me
stone cold as their questions
tug at me and threaten
my attempt at an existence
I thought I deserved.

I can't lie, even as
the weapon tears through
my flesh and rips my
gut, stunning me to
my knees.

Salty rain falls on my
lips, and I beg for
fresh water to wash
away the pain I've
caused by my own
sheath of metal.

The pillow is still
soaked with red
resentment.

Except now I'm
the traitor.

The traitor with the
faulty heart and the
bludgeoned mind

Reeking of grief
and ghosts of my
past that should have
been extinguished by
the slamming door
and a hateful speech.

Ashes, Ashes...
she will fall down.
There's a thousand reasons I could fall apart
And for a thousand days I have.

I watch her get dressed and I'm dreading
Being alone.

I've become decent at folding the laundry
The way she likes it,
But as I place her shiny purple shorts
In her drawer, my small accomplishment
Leads me to tears.

I'll be going to work soon enough, I suppose,
But there will continue to be silence
As she talks about her night because I've
Nothing to add.
She saves lives and I save...no one.
She's everything I wanted to be
And everything I'm not.

But I will halt my sadness in favor of the
Smile that she needs to see.
I'll try to accept that what I want may not
Be what I need.

And I'll only cry when I'm alone.
There are no lies between lovers.

So if you don't want to know the truth,
don't look in her eyes when you make love.

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Journal Entry: Mon Apr 30, 2012, 6:11 PM


So I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Explains a lot of my last few years. It's zapping the energy right out of me though, and my creativeness is gone. Wishing I could write something worth reading. Maybe soon. Cheers.

  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: everyone else talk
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: my children play
  • Playing: the devil's advocate
  • Eating: not much these days
  • Drinking: coffee...it's always coffee

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Of course! Hope you are well!
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Thanks for the fave
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You're welcome love!
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thanks for the fav!
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You're welcome! Glad to see your work! Have missed it!
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Thank you so much for the faves :)
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Of course.  Your work touches me.  
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Thank you for the fave :)
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I wanted to comment but it wouldn't let me. Your work blows me away. Turning pain into prose...you have a gift and I'm so glad you share it.
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