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Someday the struggling will end. Someday it has to.
Don't go back to her. Please.

Please stay here with me,
Just a little while longer.

I want your happiness.
I hate my selfishness.

But I love you.

I know my behavior has
Been irrational.

I know that you don't understand
These feelings I have towards her.

I want to be her lips, as they
Talk with you.

I want to be her arms, as they
Embrace you after a long separation.

I want to be her hands, as they
Stroke your hair.

I want to be her eyes as she
Looks upon you again.

I want to be her mouth, as she
Laughs with you about things
That only the two of you
Understand.

But I will always be the mess you know.

I will always be the jealous,
Irrational soul that wants you
To myself.

I will always be the one whose
Mood swings measure high
On the Richter scale of life.

I will always be the girl who
Cries a thousand tears without
ever knowing why.

And I will always love you.

I will always love you.
So stay... just a little longer.
Don't go. Stay.
The Plea
...so many themes at once, a ball of chaos and emotion.
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It’s storming.
She can feel it, growing stronger,
More powerful than previously known.
All she wants to do is hide.
But that’s no longer an option.
It’s time to face who she is,
And go down fighting.

Everything I never wanted to see…
Threatens to own me.
He said I was too emotional.
She said she didn’t understand me.
One reveres me and tears down the walls
I worked so furiously to build.

Satisfaction escapes me.
Every single corner is another dead end.
I want to be loved, yet I don’t feel worthy.
I want to feel worthy, yet I don’t think I deserve it.
I don’t know how to deserve it.
I don’t know how to treat myself as I treat others.
I don’t know how to annihilate the walls,
And stop my fear from constructing new ones.

I don’t know how to let go of the past,
The darkness that I call my home,
And step into the light.
Would you still love me if my face were brighter
And my soul less burdened?
If I walk into the sun,
Will I remember what it was like to live
Within the confines of a black soul,
Where every joyful moment was something
To be thankful for?

I don’t want to forget.
But I’m not sure I can heal if I don’t.
All the answers are inside.
Every. Last. One.
So how do I get there?
And do I even want to go?
It's a little clearer to me now,
though I'm not quite sure why
it wasn't before.

Those who truly care for you
will make an effort to
be in your life.

Nothing will change the way things are.
So I suppose I will have to change
my way of thinking.

All it takes is a simple gesture.

I hear nothing from you.

But rest assured, your silence
will be what I need to finally
get over you.

Farewell, old lover, old friend.
I hope you got what you wanted out of me,
out of us.
It was a pleasant agony,

If there was such a thing.

She was a house with no windows,

He a bird, caged, with the

Door wide open.

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:icontendervigilante:
TenderVigilante Featured By Owner May 8, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
Do you ever just want to trip balls and blast off to nowhere?
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:iconkiddospoet:
KiddosPoet Featured By Owner May 8, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah sometimes. You coming with me?
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:icontendervigilante:
TenderVigilante Featured By Owner May 9, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
Already there.
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DropDeadKrislyn Featured By Owner May 1, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so very much for the watch! You're simply lovely. :blowkiss:
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KiddosPoet Featured By Owner May 1, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome! I think you're amazing.
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Rivalkyrie Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the llama!
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KiddosPoet Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Of course my friend! :rose:
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MadWlad Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for the :+fav::meow: .. and have a nice day! :heart:
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KiddosPoet Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
You're very welcome!!
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:icontendervigilante:
TenderVigilante Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fave!
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